I need a shoulder
Last night I was hurt. Not physically but, emotionally. The man that I had fallen in love with confessed that he was fU%*ing someone else. It was the person that I accused him of. Man....it hurt me more when he confessed than it did when I already knew. I have become so weak because of him. I have never let a man have me down the way that he does. Don't get me wrong, I can't complain about the time that we did share. It was heavenly. I know that he cares for me but, that isn't enough. He did something that could have been prevented and then wants to keep me. Hell no. And maybe I shouldn't have slept with him last night but, I wanted to for a last time. Then, i made him leave after telling him some things that were aimed at hurting his feelings, and it worked. He was pissed and tried to turn things around on me and yet tried to justify what he did. I love him so much you guys but, I am not so man-crazed that I can't function. I keep telling myself that I am young for one and am going to meet other people. He was the second boy that I can actually say I think I love. Damn!!! it hurts, and I can't stop thinking about it.
Let me tell you something dating is going to be hard ESPECIALLY after you put your time, your trust and your heart into someone. I'm gonna tell you one thing that is keeping me YOU HAVE TO BE STRONG....you have to motivate yourself....some friends will say girl drop him and do this and that and we all know that its hard and every now and then we want to go back but you STAY motivated dont let him try to pursuade you back....if you go back (which most times we do even after we find out that he was messing around) you have to be a STRONG WOMAN you cant let your feelings override you...just be strong and if you want to talk to me just drop a note and I will respond back ASAP.