Is it really over?
I posted a blog about a situation that I was in with two boys, one that I love and one that I would like to get involved with. You all showed me love and replied to it and I was consoled for the time. Now, I am back asking for your help for one last time as this school term is quickly coming to an end. I will probably never see the boy that I am "So in love with" again. He is leaving, hell, he could be gone right now for all that I know. We know that it is over and part of our problem is that we don't want to admit it. We live too far away from each other to try to maintain a "relationship" that has never actually been acknowledged as being a relationship. So..........the other day we were lying in my bed and we began to say thing that the other wouldn't like just for fun and I guess I couldn't handle the games so I told him that I didn't want play like that anymore. In the back of my head though, I believed the sh*t that he was saying about he and another girl because of certain happenings.( He is usually w/me 66-70% of the day but, I don't know exactly what he is doing for the other 34-40%)
N E Wayz...
The next day we get into a bit of a water fight cause I am angry about that stuff from the night before. I'd rather spray water then knock the FU** out of him like I wanted to. He said some stuff that really hurt my feelings while I was wetting him up. I then, told him to get his stuff and leave my room. I told him to make sure that he didn't leave any traces of himself. Later, when I thought about it I did over react but, I think it is my way of ending our fling so that I wouldn't be so hurt when he finally leaves next week. I haven't talked to him in two days, except for when he called me yesterday to ask if he left his hat in my room.(Whatever, he knows that he didn't.) I really miss him being around. I think that now he is going to leave without letting me know because I know how his feelings are and he thinks that I am fooling around with someone else. Whewwwwwwww..I needed to let that out and thank you all for listening. Help a sistah out cause my pride won't allow me to be the one to call him. What should I do. Is it really over?
N E Wayz...
The next day we get into a bit of a water fight cause I am angry about that stuff from the night before. I'd rather spray water then knock the FU** out of him like I wanted to. He said some stuff that really hurt my feelings while I was wetting him up. I then, told him to get his stuff and leave my room. I told him to make sure that he didn't leave any traces of himself. Later, when I thought about it I did over react but, I think it is my way of ending our fling so that I wouldn't be so hurt when he finally leaves next week. I haven't talked to him in two days, except for when he called me yesterday to ask if he left his hat in my room.(Whatever, he knows that he didn't.) I really miss him being around. I think that now he is going to leave without letting me know because I know how his feelings are and he thinks that I am fooling around with someone else. Whewwwwwwww..I needed to let that out and thank you all for listening. Help a sistah out cause my pride won't allow me to be the one to call him. What should I do. Is it really over?
Every relation is worth repairing!!! Call him later tonight!! Tell him how you really feel !! Don't worry about looking vulnerable or like you gave in or anything like that!!!Even if he tries to act uninterested!! If he's true to the vibe "i'm gettin from him, he just might initially. But later, he'll subside!! Even if you can't be as close as you are now forver, you guys should still keep in touch!! Sometime its nice to have a guy fring. And its nice having a distant friend!! You never know, afetr a while y'all might fing different lovers and be able to talk and vent to each other about your separate relationships!! And if not, you could always just call every once in a while, when you're bored, going through tthe phonebook of your cell phone!! It was fun while it lasted right!!?? Focus on the god times, not on him leaving!!! If you call him soon, y'all might be able to make his departure a celebration and hang out all night or something!!!! Smile girl!!! Didn't ya motha tell how many fish were in the sea!!