October 18, 2005

Well, things are still the same and it's getting thick right now. My family doesn't know the whole truth about the things that I'm going though, but if I do tell them, they're gonna stress me out even more. Time is running out for me, I don't have a job, I have things to pay between next Friday and the 1st of November, plus back rent...I just need a miracle or a job that's gonna pay me the money I need to pay for the things that needs to be paid. I'm really on thin ice because financial aid is crazy. It's a mess. I'm trying to keep focused and keep my faith, but things are looking really bleak for me. I got so many bad things going on that I don't even know if I should continue going to school after this semester. I don't wanna drop out, but it's leaving me almost no choice.

I know y'all tired of hearing or reading this type of stuff everytime you come to read my blog, but this type of stuff is basically what's going on. It's hard to try to keep up a good GPA and struggle (and I do mean STRUGGLE) paying for college for what seems like enternity. I'm trying to just survive, but it seems like I'm losing.