September 27. 2005

Well, this has been a really hard time for me. I was not a victim of any of the hurricanes (although I had to evacuate for Rita, which turned out not 2 b anything big in my area!), but I have problems of my own. I'm going though some things that I sort of have no control over. For one, my financial aid is not going through, and I tried fighting with them and applying for loans, but I've been rejected so many times, so now I have to find another way. And two, somebody I loved so much has hurt me so bad and I'm depressed about it. He basically does not want to be with me cause I screwed up his birthday unintentionally. Now u may be sayin he don't need to be trippin over that, but he is totally different from anybody else that I know. I love him so much and I am in love with him. And I know this may sound silly, but I too am a victim of "envy over beauty" sydrome, but I'll get over it. I am just emotionally distressed right now and I am stressing over a lot of things. My feelings are hurt, I cry almost everyday, and I don't know what to do other than to pray(which is my daily and nightly routine, and w/o Him, I'm nobody!) so I'm trying to take it one day at a time. I just hope everything looks up for me, someday...