Feelin alone and incomplete
FOr the past 2 days well 3 now... I've been feeling really irritated. I didn't quite know why until today. Well I'm feeling a void in my life... i don't know whether its because of the lost of my kids ( that's been on my mind recently) or the feeling of having a man in my life. Now I know that no love is greater than he love of God. ANd I don't put anything before him. But tell me am I wrong for wanting a different kind of love in my life? I mean I'm happy but I still feel a void. It got to the point today to where I couldn't sleep. I thought I was losing my darn head. I can't help but feeling like this. I don't want to be by myself forever. Nor do i want to keep going through boyfriend after boyfriend. I'm ready to be with that one person and that ONE person ONLY. This is really frustrating me. I mean I'm really careful with who I talk to now because of my standards and things I've been through. Now when I say that I don't look at every guy like negroes ain't shhhh ... but I'm just catious about who i have in my life. I mean first of all if you're not a man of God, I'm not dealing with you and thats that. But I don't knwo what to do about how I feel. I know if I ignore it It will just get stronger. Which it already has. What should I do?????
Everyone in my family loves telling me these little sayings that after hearing them a thousand time you kind of start to understand them. They tell me when there is a empty space within you or a hurting pain sitting inside you that GOD himself is trying to tell you something. When i feel there is something wrong with me that i cant put my finger on i sit in silence somewhere where i cant be bothered and think about all the things in my life which ever one stands out the most just happens to be the problem then i pray about it. I have always seen it as if God wants you to have something he will let you have it. That includs a end to your void. God never give more than one can bare remember that. So if you feel you cant take whats being giving to you remeber that God thinks you can.
Im out
Shonda