When your world comes crashing down

Today put the icing on the cake for me. My exboyfriends lil sister was killed this morning in a car wreck/shooting. I found out about noon today. It took something from me that i didnt even know was there. I called my ex and I asked him if he was okay even though I knew the answer to that. For the first time I felt a weird connection with him.. I felt all his hurt, anger, confusion. I felt all of that. I couldn't stop shaking. Im still crying as I type this. I dont want to turn on the news because Im going to hear the story about it. I dont wanna do anything. I can't think. I mean I just talked to her two weeks ago for her birthday. This is all moving too fast for me. I just lost my godfather recently as well. Its just crazy, strange.. I can't describe it really...
R.I.P to my lil sis in law... Model, friend and sister. LOVE YOU!!