Last Saturday, Josh and I were playing a game and I just began to reminsce about the different things that he has said to me over the short period of time he has been here........ for instance, Thursday morning, I woke him up and he told me 'Momma, I am busy.' and put the blanket back over his head! Or the many times that he says "Mom can I talk to you for a second," whenever he wants to say something for me or when he knows that he is going to bed...... It is like he has been here before. He is such a little man. It is amazing because just a few years ago, I did not realize that this little person was going to be ale to express himself so clearly or be able to articulate what is going on around him. My world has totally changed since this little fella has come into my life. He has helped me sort out between the real men and the fake, he has taught me patience with children(which is still very much a challenge, but growth in this area has tremendously been abundant), and he has truly taught me the meaning of unconditional love. It feels good to know that even when I was not so sure I even liked myself, there was this little person who had wide open arms to give me a hug, even before he could talk...(which is how God is with us, but I digress)! If I never get married, my son will be there...at least until he leaves to go to college, meets the woman of his dreams and gets married himself.. but for 18 years, he will be here.......( I know he will be here always).
One thing I know for sure is that my bedtime totally changed. I used to be able to hang with the big DAWGS....in undergrad we stayed up around the clock if we felt like it and didn't have anything to do. I could do that at the drop of the dime and don't mention mid-terms or finals.... but once I had Mr. Joshua Andrew Moore...I was put on a schedule. I am usually in the bed by 10, if I am not ripping and running all over the place and no matter where I am, I am sleepy about that time. I think that is one of the funniest things about being a parent.
My responsibilities have totally changed.......I can't do fast food every night, or go and spend the night with my boyfriend(unless Josh is coming with...) This is good though..especially for the latter because I have my stuff on 'Clank-Clank'..........I am cooking meals and ironing things the night before to prepare for the next day......Wow!!!
Your life really changes when you become a parent!!!! Of course, I didn't just realize this today...I am just reflecting..........I am truly blessed! My son is the greatest gift God could have ever given me(oh besides eternal life!!)
One Love,
Stay Blessed,
Vicskeyas
Posted By: VICSKEYAS MOORE
Thursday, June 22nd 2006 at 1:18PM
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