i am losing faith

I am losing faith in my people. Every time i look at the news all i see are these negative images of black people and no matter how hard i try to be positive it just doesn't work. My heart is breaking because i love them so much and i want so much more for them but they don't seem to want more for themselves. Between this black woman who killed her three children and bill cosby being charged with rape i am losing my mind. I look around my campus and i see all the signs, the signs of a people on the brink of extinction. They come to College in the same mindset they left high school; not growing, not learning, not striving for more. Its like nobody is dreaming anymore, no one's fighting and marching for change, were so stagnant. The thinking is that we're okay but we are dying of aids and so many other diseases, we're killing each other instead of helping each other. Our babies hardly get a chance to live! There is no such thing as home or family!why? i don't understand! why are we here? what are we living for? when we just undo all the progress we've made. our bodies might be free but our minds are still enslaved. our bodies might be free but are souls have died. I once carried the dreams of a people but now all i carry is their despair and shame. Where are those people, it s because of them i am where i am today but tomorrow is so uncertain. I know others may feel different but all i know is i am losing faith cause they lost faith in God. i am giving up because they have givin up on themselves. i am losing hope because hope has faded into despair. i am dying because their spirit has died. i lost all my dreams because they have forgot how to. Somebody tell me there's hope? Cause i am drowning is a sea of destitution.