You Can't see me either...Now what?

The title of this entry actually is a pretty funny story...lol I was sitting on IM talking with a friend one day about an entry that he wrote in his blog about a book entitled You Can't See Me...supposidly the book is about how women say they want one thing and end up settling for another. Well of course I've got a response to that....MEN DO THE SAME THING!! I'm completely convinced that nobody knows what the hell they want so I'm going to write my own book and title it You Don't See Me Either....So Now WHAT??!!

For a while now a few friends have said that they feel invisible...and I'll be damned if I'm not starting to feel the same way! I don't feel like the "right" men are attracted to me and when I say right I only mean a man who wants more than s*x from me...sheesh! I DO want a relationship....I DO want a good guy....I DO want to be happy and I REFUSE to settle for anything else!!

Is it too much to ask for someone to have an attraction to me other than something physical...is it too much to ask for a little respect even a date every now and then???? I don't feel like I ask for much and I'm very easy to please...just a little time and consideration and of course you can expect the same dedication! But it just seems that guys aren't looking for the same thing or maybe I'm not "fast" enough or maybe its because I don't have any baggage ...cause yeah even tho they say that they want it the "good" guys always seem to end up with the bad girls, the drama queens or the chicks who have 5-11 kids and/or baby daddy's or those who will allow them to walk all over them....AHHH maybe thats it. Maybe its because my model comes with a brain attached !! Well DAMN I think I'm on to something!! LOL Really I'm just kidding but it all leads back to my statement that we don't know what we want ...we just end up settling for the person whom we feel has the potential to becoming what we need. which is a dangerous situation...but thats a whole nother entry for another day.

So now back to my delima...I've decieded to take myself off of the market for a while...In order to explore my own self just a little bit more. I feel like I need to be happy with me before I can invite someone else into my life and expect to make them happy. I'm getting to the point where I'm tired of dealing with people and being on their terms most times. I'm sick of casual s*x and really want someone that I can feel some since of attachement to....It's not that I'm going to refuse to date or anything like that but I'm gonna take the time to develop friendships and if thats not what you're looking for then I guess I'm not the girl for you.