As the preparation for studying abroad from January

I made it a rule to write a diary(blog) in English everyday.
Now it seems so hard to be admitted by Howard because of my English skills, especially TOEFL score. Good greif...
But I do everything possible to prevent from going the university, which is not HBCU, recommended by the agent. I do want to study theatre in HBCU, ever!! If not, it's no worth. It's not only for myself but my parents. I've had it up to here with doing what I dont wanna do.
And I'm willing to go summerschool of Howard.