Life...Love...Lessons...
My grandmother used to tell me "one day, when you get older you will understand," or "one day you will see." Never did I think that "one day" would come so suddenly. Now as I begin to not only MAKE my own decisions, but LIVE with them, as I JUDGE others, and also get JUDGED, and as I SHORTCUT people and find myself getting CUT SHORT, I look back and reminisce upon the days when all I had to do was listen to my parents and go to bed at a certain time, and everything was provided for me. And now I realize the luxury of having a bedtime on those nights of ENDLESS homework and the simplicity of always having someone to answer for me when I find myself unable to make decisions by myself or when I find myself drowning in the decisions I made already. Oh Grandma, if only you could see me now. I'm burning bridges, rebuilding them, hurting feelings, rekindling them, and life does get hard. I still have Jesus. Daddy still tries to help. But I can tell when I can't wait to get in the bed, when I really don't want to go to work, and when I can't stay focused in class that today is "one day," and I had no idea that it would come so soon. I think you jinxed me. :)
