Getting Older

I remember growin up I would alwayz be like I can't wait til I'm grown so I can get up outta here & be on my own and do what I want. But now it'z like the older I get & the closer it gets to graduation, the more I realize how much of a child I am & how I'm not ready to be out on my own. I mean sure I have my lil job at Six Flags now or whateva, but I dont have bills to pay. I have no responsibility what so ever, I can spend my paycheck on whateva I want & not have to worry about being strung out because I have a bill to pay but I wasted my check on something I didn't need. Its almost my time to leave the nest & spread my wings, but I'm not sure I'm ready or have the abiltiy to do so, you know? I've alwayz had some one there 2 take care of me & provide me with what I needed & some of the things I wanted, but now it's my time to go out there & do 4 myself. I have my brother 2 look up 2 cuz he jus left 4 college this year & has been doin good, but I alwayz thought he would because he's more independent than dependent...he's alwayz been a free spirit & a lone soul.