Dag...its like this...
Well, today I recieved my 1st social security check in my own name. Seeing it really hit me like, I'm 18 n really moving on 2 college soon. Now I'm scared! It like brought out my worst fear in the world!!! I mean In 5-10 years 4rm now I'll be married w/ children...N I'm soooooo terrified that my kids are gonna grow up like me w/out there father because he'll have died while I'm pregnant jus like my daddy did when my ma was pregnant w/ me! I mean seeing that check really hit me about how my "new" life will be. I'm so excited to start it but I'm just as scared about starting it. I want to better myself n live the life I want for myself. I mean dont get me wrong I'm ready to leave now,lol... But I mean its that thought running through my head now that graduation is really just around the corner and I'll be on my own. Its crazy because that hasn't ever scared me b4 until now...
I think about the same things. In a month I'll be getting my check, and seeing your blog reminds me of how different it'll be. I can't wait until graduation, then it'll be time to start a new life. I'm sooooo ready to leave, but not ready to be without the people I love the most. I'll survive and you will too.
Good Luck With Everything You Do!!!!