Man...I don't know what to do...
With all this talk of friends/good relationships with significant others, it has caused me to question some things in my life. I just realized...I'm not happy with it.
I love my career, college, and all that stuff. However, I hate my social life. I have only 4 people I know I can count on to talk to: my mom, Ashly, Chika, and Nicole. Now, my mom is a given. She's a blessing to me. Ashly...I don't know how this will play out as you know girls are known for using people (not singling you out ladies). Chika...that's my homegirl, and I'll do anything for her. Nicole, we just met, but she real cool, and will always be there for me (at least right now).
Now, those are only four people. They all have lives that they are leading, so they can't hear me all the time. Me...I have no one besides them. I mean, I know a LOT of people...but there is no one really besides them (not including my net buddies).
It's cool to have peeps on the net and stuff...but it's not the same as having someone right there. Out of the four people I named, only one is right there for me to talk to and that's my mom.
I've been wondering, "Is it me?" Is it my fault I don't have more friends and whatnot? Is it my fault that things go bad a lot?
I'm just hella confused right now. I don't know. I'm depressed, and I know I don't have a chemical imbalance or anything like that, so I'm a normal adult. I don't know...what do you think?
you need to pray more!