So Mad

I know ya'll are tired of hearing about me and my family but i can't help it, ya'll give such good advice. Anyway I was suppose to go to dinner with my biological father last night and as he always did he set me up for something and doesn't come through with it. I mean i really thought we were over this stupid mess. I mean he came through to see me before i left for the prom and he came through for my class day and he came through for my graduation, i know you guys think i should be happy that he came to that but for some reason i cant be content with that. I mean i was really excited about going out with my father i mean i haven't gotten a chance to sit down with my father and work out our differences but he didn't come through. i saw this as a change that he really did want to be in my life but i could see i was wrong. I try to look at things in a positive light i mean i didn't say anything when he came to my graduation and class day dead drunk i was happy that he came but hey its really turning out that im beginning not to care. Am i over reacting? I mean im tired of all this i mean be in my life or dont im tired of being his anytime child. My sister has disregarded my father and me being the baby i still have hope but im really seeing how easy it is to forget and let go rather than be hurt and keep hoping. It sucks. Am i wrong for wanting to give up. Im so Mad