CONFESSIONS

How hard can it get....everyday it bothers me to

see him or touch him or talk to him on the phone and i wish i can tell him how much i

want him back but he cant even forgive himself for what he has done........Why cant he

understand that he had a real good woman on his side that never left him i always

there for him mentally, s*xually and stably, i was his everything and his one and only.

Why cant i let him go i dont know but there is something holding me and him together

as friends and i cant take it anymore and i wish i can scream cause it bothers me

everyday.Maybe its tough love or maybe its just not ment to be. I take my time

thinking about other things to block him out and still that dont work I try to be his good

friend or just a friend and its hard to do that. His kiss ment everything and his touch

was a touch i never felt before and i knew it was love. He is not your average guy be

he is a damn good one.......Why cant he just let me be and give me what i

want...............On my christmas list i want Him with me holding like he use to and i

want his full love surrounding with he was my Prince Charming, My Superman, My X-

Man, and my bestfriend with all this on my mind WHAT SHOULD I DO????? can anybody

help me