I'm sorry for being hard on myself and truly see the person who I am. My actions towards others are genuine and true, but why can't I register it in my mind that I am a good person. Maybe because I tend to lose myself in idle time looking into the negative aspects of my past. It's ironic that i come up with profound answers to the questions I constantly ask myself, and yet I don't believe them. My friends appreciate the words of wisdom I give to them in their time of trouble. I guess I still have not discovered my true priceless self-worth. I have to become strong in order to share my gift to the world that God has bestowed upon, but what am I afraid of.
Why do I feel that my school did not prepare me enough to be able to handle a world full of greed, deceit, and wrath? Society doesn't tell college graduates that the transition to independence does not come automatically, in fact, we are brought back home until we find a stable job (which may not be the one of our intented major yet), and find an apartment that finally brings the transition to independence to fruition. How many of us ask our parents who graduated college what they did when they left college.
Our society is so fast paced and intermingled with technology that we don't see many children outside playing that much any more, it seems that we are becoming less patient and want events in our lives to happen with the snap of our fingers. I notice the behavioral changes in the animals outside due to the changing environment such a trees being cut down in neighborhoods and etc.
I really have to sit back reflect on what I really want to do with my life and discover the other gifts that are hidden inside of me. I really have to take care of myself spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally, and intellectually.
Posted By: Candice Johnson
Tuesday, April 18th 2006 at 4:45PM
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