Emotional Rollercoaster
Hey everyone I am in need for some help. I usually dont do personal blogs, but i am so confused right now i want to cry.
I love the father of my baby, I would do anything for him, but before him there was my first love. I dont know if he or any friends of his come to this site so i am not going to mention his name, but i think about him so much. I dont even know why he is on my mind, he wasnt the best boyfriend, I mean no gifts, when i was with him i felt like i was on a schedule, and some (even the guy i am with now) say he cheated on me (I never caught him). But with him I had so much fun, he was romantic, and wanted me to go everywhere with him. We split up because he went to college, we tried the long distance thing but it didn't work. But now, and for a long time now, he is on my mind. I think about our past times and sometimes just want to call him, but i dont and try to just forget it and think about the wonderful person i am with now. Today though, i couldnt help myself, I called him and it felt so good, he was at work and he said he will call me back later. There are somethings i probably need to tell him, like i had a baby, but i cant work up the nerve because what he thinks about me matters to me and.................. I dont know. I just cant seem to understand why am i having these strong feelings and missing this person, and longing to talk to him when i am with someone i would say is better for me. Someone please help me some words of encouragement or advice would help.
KEEP IN MIND: I do love my boyfriend probably soon to be husband (that is another blog for another time) So me not really loving him isnt the issue.
Thank you in advance
I love the father of my baby, I would do anything for him, but before him there was my first love. I dont know if he or any friends of his come to this site so i am not going to mention his name, but i think about him so much. I dont even know why he is on my mind, he wasnt the best boyfriend, I mean no gifts, when i was with him i felt like i was on a schedule, and some (even the guy i am with now) say he cheated on me (I never caught him). But with him I had so much fun, he was romantic, and wanted me to go everywhere with him. We split up because he went to college, we tried the long distance thing but it didn't work. But now, and for a long time now, he is on my mind. I think about our past times and sometimes just want to call him, but i dont and try to just forget it and think about the wonderful person i am with now. Today though, i couldnt help myself, I called him and it felt so good, he was at work and he said he will call me back later. There are somethings i probably need to tell him, like i had a baby, but i cant work up the nerve because what he thinks about me matters to me and.................. I dont know. I just cant seem to understand why am i having these strong feelings and missing this person, and longing to talk to him when i am with someone i would say is better for me. Someone please help me some words of encouragement or advice would help.
KEEP IN MIND: I do love my boyfriend probably soon to be husband (that is another blog for another time) So me not really loving him isnt the issue.
Thank you in advance
You will always have feelings for your first love, you'll never forget about him. No matter how wonderful the guy you're with now is, there will always be something about your old boyfriend that you'll miss. But be careful now that you're talking to him again, you don't want to do anything to mess up your current relationship.