I can really relate to Solomon now.
I have a host of experiences from life and living and surviving it. I have had and studied African, Religion, Psychology, Sociology, Biology, Science, Philosophy, Math, blah, blah, blah.
Just a piece of Paper from Colleges.
None of all the sciences or math could ever explain Love, “ But hey there was a lightning strike that energized the muddy soup and a single cell saw a cute amoeba and they mated and synapses formed and then there was thought and see, that’s how Love came to be”!
This is what some scientists would say.
Astrology which is nothing but science, math (trigonometry) can not explain anything. It is all thrown off if an asteroid, meteorite, comet crosses the path of sine’s, cosines, But hey I don't know anything right???
Black seminars, Egyptian mythology, probably had some of the same professors that some read their stuff from i.e. Dr. James Baldwin, etc.
Read books from Mormon Bible to Malachi York. TM (Transcendental Meditation in college in College); Religion course. You name it from Buddha to Catholicism. I believe Gandhi was a good man. M.L.K., Malcolm X etc. They died for their causes in which many who now critique still live and have not died or did anything worthwhile.
None of these ologies, edumacation, science, math etc. could ever explain why prayer works.
None could ever explain why I am still here throughout ALL the dumb and dangerous and life threatening things I have done/experienced.
All those ologies always lead to dead ends, which is obvious in the lives of those who subscribe to their vainness. Edumacation is not a wrong used in moderation. Yes there are extremes in Religion to what I name Spiritual for appropriate moderation.
Vainness is self-knowing everything at the expense that everything else is wrong but oneself. No hope for nothing to believe in. Just death. Sigh.
No love for it can't be explained by science, math, technology etc.
So smart that no one is on your level thus all are beneath, thus all alone; exuding nothing but bitterness, wrath, anger etc.
Hey no need to dream, for dreaming for better does not help.
Counting on only self and nothing outside of self leads to worms, death and decay. Of course vainness would not expect me to know what it knows. I have not reached this all-self awareness that the world must know or be counted among the dumb and naive.
Out of all what I have learned, I have learned that there is an intellectual vastness outside of me that I cannot totally understand nor fathom.
I know I reap what I sow and sow what I reap.
I know I am much better off, happy, just to know, there is a "Almighty".
"He" is in the eyes of the one that beholds. The joy of a baby, the adoration of a child, the sister to a sister and the father that every man needs or is lost without. "He" is view of the culture or nature one belongs to.
"He" is my Blessing to allow me to be stupid when I am, in hopes I will grow past that stupidness.
I pray I get it somewhat right before I am 40 and I commend those under my age that evidently have .
For those who are above 40 and I know you have it, I seek you out
Of course most that have it are not perfect, but they are so much closer than vainness.
I met a 2nd cousin of the age of 60. All focus had to be on him, so angry, all accusative of everything and don't pick up or even think about spiritual around this person. He would cut his eyes and you could feel his loathing at you but preach don't push anything off on me. He lives by himself, his wife left, his children don't come near him, he lies about what he does etc. So pitiful, he did his insulin shot at the kitchen table. Lifted up his shirt, fat stomach and all, just seeking attention. So miserable but states happy. I came to meet him, had just came from Church. He refused to speak. I told my Aunt a Pastor, "Does he know I will whip his a...(Just being real and honest). He went out of his way to try and hound me. He claimed to have retired from being a professor of history at NY University. He does not have a college degree.
Family around here after being around him, don't answer his calls or male. He is just that putrid and mean. His momma is the only person that speaks to him. A mother and the love for her child.
1st person I met like this was back in the Army. Cold, angry, bitter etc. Estranged from family for they were all so dumb. Everything was a conspiracy. I don't believe the lady brushed her teeth, because a religionist may work for the company, Lol!
"God" Bless to all even those who state they don't answer to "God" Bless. I know you did to many others and me.
Even vainness is a belief. Just many don't know it.
I don't want to get started on biological men that call themselves pretty(I can see joking but meaning it?), when I was growing up we called that homos*xual now we have the down low. Trends....
Some women that want respect but you in a g-string bending over, leaving nothing to the imagination because you are such a smart, strong, intellectual going to med school, representing the people, you better give me respect and wine and dine me and put a ring on my finger and oh buy a size 6. 8, 10 and 4 size diapers for my children, who hear me?
But hey, I am supposed to be a spiritual man, I don't notice that because I don't have testosterone, only see your face and am too holy to have a desire because "God" got all that covered with what "He" put in me to want a woman in the 1st place.
I am just so far removed from really being out there, all men have......
Think about it.
"If you want the Man, come spiritual, not Materialistic VANITY. All the physical fades, but "God"/Spiritual.......................
That is if your spirit is not seeking him out to destroy him...........
I've known the cutest exotic girls and too cute to take bathes, brush their teeth and................
If you ain't clean............. Beauty is from within, jus keep on livn. I am now at the age where wats her name was all that years ago, but now......... But hey you got foreva, right? This is for all men and women.
Pam Greer sho was awesome back during the day, so was Lt. Uhura on Star Trek and so was..................
There are some awesomely beautiful older women out there, wonder wat's their secret???????????
A true good man won't wantcha and he will spot your game from a million miles away, now a man not spiritual................ Those are the ones that dog ya out. Think about it??????????
But hey I don't know nuthin. I have not been there done that. Like the song, "I 'm every woman....... Well, I'm every man.
Men talk. We in general take what ya give us. What you present yourselves as, despite the fake facade words. Spirit exhibits.
I aspire, but there are brutha's here that are really awesome. Wisdom of babes is not chronological but it should be.
Fellas ever had a beautiful exotic you don't know what race she is call you beautiful as David? Who twists scriptures to plant seeds?
Focus on the great things and miss the small things that rage into fires and sinks ships. Seeds.
Solomon, Samson, David, Adam, all messed up.
Remember the Bible is neutral gender in most cases. Many great women are tripped up either before or after.
Who were smarter, stronger or Blessed than those men? But the gifts were never taken away. They became blurred. Been there.
We as men have an advantage on these men. We can see what happened to them
Wish I would have payed attention years ago. I'd be much further along, but hey, we are all at where we are at. "God" knew that. I would not be here if not for all the past mistakes.
I see younger Bro's at this site know. hey just have to give credit as a Man where it is due.
They must be stayn connected to a power source:-)
Just tryn to help out the ladies truly seeking and the good men here that are seeking the same.
Oh and everyone stays 19-22 forever. I did :-) 22 physically that is.................
I live in a society where women pushing 40 are trying to stay 18 by get this, in behavior only. My brotha's here know what I mean and maybe some of my younger sistah's here that have boyfriends and you are having to compete with women your moma's age that are after him. Her excuse well everyone tells me I look 16.
Well Sistah's have that melanin and I have seen sistah's 60 years old with figures most 18 year olds would starve themselves for.
I have uncle's and I know older men that wear outfits like Boyz2men wore back during the day, becaue they are chasing youth instead of letting youth chase them, if yall feel me.
Men 60 years old making babies with teens of 18, 19, 20 etc. just for the heck of it and gloat and got the nerve to get mad when put on child support.
I remember trying my hardest not to go off on a Uncle that has made 5 babies in 3 years (my fathers brother). Had 3 last year. He always laughs and tells the joke about a 19 year old girl that slept with him. The girl one day asked him his age. he told her. She replied, why didn't you tell me, he replied, you didn't ask.
I like to have a good time, I love spades, play and am the best at madden football, etc.
But I dress my style, I'm not trying to be who I'm not. I am just me.
But to each their own.
I have a photo of me going for a basketball dunk, I can wear what I want to wear, but......... I am 38 years old. Good "God", where has the time gone!?
Seeds........
I thot 25 was old at 19 and certainly my mother when she was 30 and..............
Have an awesome day.
Just my 2cents worth.
p.s. All of the above only makes sense to the ones it is supposed to make sense to. Hint? Spiritual must tie in all to connect, make sense, work etc. Just think about relationships: Spiritual vs. Physical, Estrogen vs. Testosterone, Right Hemisphere vs. Left hemisphere, she’s at her peak and You………. Or vice-versa respectfully.
To complex for all those books out there ………………….
"God" Bless All
Venting on this article.
Sincerely
William
Posted By: WILLIAM W. HEMMANS III
Saturday, September 10th 2005 at 8:55AM
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