If you need to read the first one, it's at
http://hbcuconnect.com/alumnidb/cgi-bin/bl... Now it's time for the update. I decided to call Keisha up, just to talk. She answers the phone and is very excited I called. However, her mom's on the phone, so she wanted to call me back. I'm like, "Sure...that's cool."
After that, I felt really relieved. I was no longer carrying a grudge, and I made an attempt to reach out to her. I'm watching my show The 4400, and I just felt so at ease. It was a great feeling.
She didn't call back that night. She sent me a text at around 1 in the morning saying that her grandfather was in the hospital and he was sick. I was like, "OK. Just call me when you can."
I couldn't help but think, "Didn't this happen before?" Yeah...it was a modified story. She told me that she had been in the hospital for a crackin her skull she got in soccer, so she couldn't call me up. This was when she was breaking up with me the wrong way (by not calling or letting me know what's up). However, I shook it off as that old dust/negativity coming back. I remained optimistic.
So...a week goes by. No call from Keisha. I'm thinking, "OK...something must've happened to her grandfather, so she's in mourning or something." Still trying to remain optimistic. Two weeks later...no call. Fast forward to present, nearly a month and no call.
Now...I'm tempted to just stop talking to her altogether, because she deserves it. I never did her wrong in our relationship, even though she blew me off to spend time with her female friends and stuff. I never called her out of her name to anyone, even after I found out how she hurt me. Her name was always, "Keisha" (even though my homeboy calls her a b...).
Now...what do I do? I've called her, and tried to establish that line of communication again. However, it's like...I don't exist to her or whatever. My question is...do I do a follow-up call and see what happened? Or do I just let the whole matter go completely?
I really wanted to be her friend...really. It hurts (fighting back tears) that she does me like this. The only girl I ever loved, does me wrong. Women always talk about the men...but no one really notices what the men go through that turns them into dogs. I'm trying so hard not to become one...
Posted By: Darryl D. Smith
Wednesday, August 10th 2005 at 8:48PM
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