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AND THE FEMALES WERE TELLING HER THAT I WAS CHEATING MY SENIOR YEAR AS WELL WHICH I WAS AND ALSO THEY WERE TELLING HER THINGS THAT HAPPENED MY JUNIOR YEAR ALSO. SO FINALLY I GUESS SHE HAS HAD ENOUGH WITH HEARING THINGS ABOUT ME SHE IN NOVEMBER OF 2004 SHE DECIDED TO BREAK UP WITH ME. SO I BEGGED BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN ALMOST THREE YEARS THAT HAS GONE BY AND WE WERE STILL TOGETHER OFF AND ON. SO SHE SAID NOPE JIMMIE I NEED SPACE. SO AFTER US ARGUING FOR ABOUT A MONTHS TIME I FINALLY SAID FINE YOU CAN HAVE YOUR SPACE. SO SECOND SEMESTER ROLLS AROUND AND NOW SHE ACTS LIKE I DON'T EVEN EXIST. LIKE IM NOT ON THE CLASS OF 2005 ROSTER. I WOULD SPEAK TO HER AND SHE WOULDN'T SPEAK BACK. SO OF COURSE IM GETTING VERY ANGRY AND UPSET. BECAUSE NOW FROM NOVEMBER TO JANUARY SHE NOT SPEAKING TO ME AT ALL AT SCHOOL. AND MUST I TELL YOU WE ATTEND THE SAME CHURCH AS WELL. SO THE WHOLE SECOND SEMESTER GOES BY AND SHE ACTS LIKE I DON'T EVEN EXIST. SO I GO ALONG WITH IT FOR THE WHOLE TIME AND FINALLY I COULDN'T STAND IT ANYMORE. SO I GO OVER HER HOUSE AND WE TALK AND I TELL HER THE TRUTH ABOUT EVERYTHING. ABOUT HOW MY SOPHMORE THROUGH SENIOR YEAR I BASICALLY WAS CHEATING. SO SHE NOW WASN'T BELIEVING ANYTHING THAT CAME OUT OF MY MOUTH. SO I WAS LIKE I STILL LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL BECAUSE WE SPENT ALMOST THREE YEARS OF OUR LIFE TOGETHER. SO NOW FAST FOWARD TO ABOUT A MONTH AGO. I RECEIVED A LETTER IN THE MAIL STATING THAT NCA&T HAD A SPOT OPEN FOR ME IN THE SPRING OF 2006. NOW IM JUST LIKE WHOA WHAT DO I DO? I MEAN YEA THIS GURL ISN'T PAYING ME ANY ATTENTION BUT WE HAVE TALKED ABOUT US BEING TOGETHER SOMEWHERE IN THE FUTURE. SO I CALL HER AND SHE WASN'T AT HOME. SO I LEFT A MESSAGE FOR HER TO CALL ME BACK. SHE CALLED ME BACK AND THE FIRST WORDS OUT OF HER MOUTH WERE DON'T CALL ME ANYMORE. I WAS ON THE OTHER END LIKE DON'T CALL YOU ANYMORE. SHE RESPONDED YES...AND HUNG UP THE PHONE. SO THE WHOLE TIME IM THINKING THIS IS A JOKE RIGHT. SO I CALL BACK AND WAS LIKE SO U DON'T WANT ME TO CALL U ANYMORE. SHE RESPONDED, "YES" SO I BASICALLY WAS LIKE EVERYTHING I TOLD U AT YOUR HOUSE IS DOWN THE DRAIN CORRECT, AND SHE AGAIN RESPONDED, "YES" SO I WAS SO PISSED THAT NIGHT I HONESTLY ALMOST CRIED. SO THAT SAME DAY I ACCEPTED THE LETTER TO ATTEND NCA&T BECAUSE MY WHOLE REASON FOR CALLING HER WAS TO SEE IF WE WERE EVER GETTING BACK TOGETHER. BECAUSE IF WE WERE I WAS GOING TO STAY IN NASHVILLE, IF NOT I WAS MOVING ON AND WE CAN THEN AT THAT POINT BE FRIENDS. SO NOW ABOUT 3 WEEKS AGO SHE TEXTED ME AND SHE SAID "hey jimmie dis is (her name) i kno ur mad at me and things r very akward but i had my reasons. i was kinda sad wen u said u were leavin. & ima miss u!" SO WE TEXT EACH OTHER BACK AND FORTH THAT WHOLE DAY AND IT EVENTUALLY COMES OUT THAT SHE NOW WANTS A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME. NOW ISNT THIS THE SAME GIRL WHO I HAVE BEEN WITH ALMOST THREE YEARS OF MY LIFE, ISNT THIS IS ALSO THE SAME GIRL WHO I'VE KNOWN FOR FIFTEEN OUT OF ALMOST NINETEEN YEARS OF MY LIFE. ON THE OTHER HAND...ISN'T THIS IS THE SAME GIRL THAT IGNORED ME AND MADE MY WHOLE SECOND SEMESTER A LIVING HELL. WHAT SHOULD I DO HBCU!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO!